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i'm pretty sure you're gonna read this.
you should be HAPPY for me. it's not what you want, but if you want me to be happy- let me BE happy and make the choices that are going to make me the happiest in the end. you know if you were in my situation, months down the road- you would do it too. this is what I want. maybe not your choice, but be happy for me. i know what i'm getting into, but i also know how to handle myself. i've grown up and matured a lot in the past couple of months. it's my choice. i'm not asking you to be around it or like it, but at least support my decision. that would mean the world to me.

let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

No one is perfect. Yeah, it's cliche- I know. But it's also the truth. You don't have a right to judge anyone else and put them down for a choice that was theirs to make. If you're going to be so hypocritical as to judge someone and then make a choice just like the one they make, that's ridic.

Some people are going to make worse choices than others did, or might ever will but that still doesn't mean you have to spread that around. Your business is yours, it's not everyone else's. 

Just because you've known someone for years and what they like and don't like and most things about them, doesnt mean that they can't stray away from that picture you've painted of them and do something a little out of the ordinary. Things are constantly changing right before our eyes, whether we want to believe it or not. You just have to take a step back and really think about things.

If people want to talk about you and be hypocritical, let them. It won't matter in a few years anyways. You won't remember half of the things that happened in high school, either. It might seem like the biggest deal, but it's really not. 

Who cares who slept with who, and what so and so did this weekend- I mean, really. It's not that big of a deal so shut the fuck up and be happy. Quit stressing.

I had to get that all out. 

But anyways. Pretty okay weekend, overall. Worked, saw Jerrin, saw Sarah, saw Shelley, went to Miss LE practice. Super excited for Saturday! 

sometimes a good cry is all you really need to feel better.

makin' love to the moneyyy

okay. i'm ready for cute clothes, warm weather and the beach. this snow is RIDIC. it's allll over facebook,  but i mean- look out your window. it is not supposed to look like that outside in south carolina. but anyways! i was going out earlier and i had no problem the first time i went out. so then later, i went to leave for work- and when i started to stop.. my car wouldn't stop. it was sliding on the ice and there was a car coming. it was so scary. but the car slowed down really fast and let me out. thank goodness for nice people.

tonight. at work. i had to get down on my hands and knees. legitly.
and scrub the floor... >.< i don't clean. not even at my own house. and i was on the ground, SCRUBBING for a good little while... it was awful.

definitely woke up sick this morning. so upset about that. it kinda sucks so bad. but i'm finally getting to watch the new season of jersey shore! hahahaha, it's hilarious.

but. i'm upset that first semester is over. i'm glad we're closer to summer- yes. but not looking forward to wednesday when alll my hard classes will start. i've definitely slacked off this semester. but i had honors world history, spanish 2, free block, and dance.. pretty easy. but come wednesday, - spanish 3, honors english 3, algebra 2 and then honors bio 1. in other words, i'm fucked. whoop.

you can't bullshit a bullshiter

I don't feeeeeeeel good. My throat is killing me and I'm so sore I can barely move. Gah. This is awful.
Only one more day and it'll be the weekend, and I'll be free. And I won't have any of these classes! Yay.

I realized I never really thought about my resolutions. I've never really been serious about them.. - or had any, at that. So I'll start now?

(Attempt at) Resolutions
1. Have as much fun as possible
2. Don't stress over the small things
3. Save up for a new ipod
4. Stay out of trouble with my parents (!!!!)
5. Be nice to my sister
6. Don't eat as much junk food
7. Keep my head up


I know it's not that much. But it needs to happen. I wanna save my money so I can buy new Toms and a not broken ipod.

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I don't know why people spread things and talk as much shit as they do. I get that everyone does it, and I have before. If you say you've never talked shit- that's a lie. And I know when you hear something, you want to tell your friends about it so they know what you know- but when you're in that position you don't like it very much. So how about keep your damn mouth shut, thanks. I'm not going to be nice to you if you're gonna talk shit.

If someone's happy, let them be.

i'm here without you baby,

but you're still with me in my dreams.
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today.. uneventful. had to stay after. again. then tanning bed, and now home for a little bit.
so glad i have my restricted finally <3

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you can wish and hope and cry allll you want- but that doesn't mean something that happened will go away. you can push something to the farthest part of the back of your mind- but it's still right there. it's not gonna go away. you can be perfectly fine without a person, but sometimes a part of you needs them.. in some way. always will. you can resent a person with everything, but feelings change. they always do; just like people. just because you say you hate someone doesn't mean anything. everyone lies. you never know.

whether that makes sense or not, i needed to get it out.

she's better known for the things that she does on the mattress

Oh 2010. I've had the best memories this past year and met some of the greatest people ever. Mistakes and regrets come along with some of the good, but in the end- it was all worth it. The beginning of 2010 wasn't the greatest time and things steadily got better over the year.
It's not so much that I changed this year. I mean, I did. But that's just one of those things that comes with time. I grew up a lot, too.

But my New Year's has been great so far. But I haven't slept in about... a long time. Hahahahahah. But anyways. Happy New Years!