don't f*ck with me at all, 'cause i'm twisted like an a rubik's cube

MONDAY.
So, have I mentioned how unhappy I am to be back at school? Oh, well I am. I could have been sleeping in like I did most of break, but NO. I have to get woken up at six, not get up till seven and have 20 minutes to get ready. Not to mention, I didn't get to sleep till late last night. I had a rough night- fersure. And then I get here and I have to sit in my first block for almost two hours with the teacher pissing me the fuck off. I am not a morning person. Gah. And I look like a straight up BUM. But me and Shelley are presenting our small group dance in last block today finally! And I got some things straightened up, and I'm gonna have a nice pay check next week! 20 hours worth of paycheck! :)
- & powderpuff game tonight! Aw.

I've been looking at clothes allllll day online and I completely didn't listen in spanish two today. So little patience.


Three things guys do you love.
1. walk up behind you and give you a hug
2. know how to make me laugh
3. understand when to just let you talk (esp if you're upset, etc..)


TUESDAY.
I need to not be so slack with this. I'm tired. I don't want to be at school. I'm upset-ish. And my tummy hurts.

Two smileys. 
=)
<3

You ever get in one of those moods where you want to do nothing but hug someone? Because you know it'll make you feel better. Yeah... I feel like that right about now. I want a great big hug. I haven't cried in so long. I guess that's a sign that I've gotten stronger and I don't let things get to me as easily. But crying doesn't mean you're weak. Sometimes you've just gotta let it allll out. And that can make you stronger for being able to let it  all out, ya know? I just want to go home and go to sleep. But I want a hug first..


After school : Walmart with Shelley! <3 and then we're going running, hahahaha :)

'Cause baby you weren't the first or the last or the worst

Four things that guys do you hate.
1. play with a girl's heart
2. treat girls like a piece of meat
3. ignore you
4. flirt with EVERY girl



My birthday is almost here, thank goodnessss! I can't wait till I can work nights at work and then I'll have more free time for myself and my friends and to make plans. I miss my best friend. I don't ever get to see her anymore.. </3 I hate living in the middle of nowhere. I hate how cold it is outside. I hate any weather under like 70 degrees pretty much, but I love my Uggs. But still- I'd rather be at the beach. I don't want to go on vacation the week on Christmas. I hate how ridiculous my parents can be sometimes. I don't like dogs one bit... But I love chihuahuas. Weird, right? I need new jeans and it's pissing me off my mom won't buy them for me. My sister gets everything she wants, but I don't hardly ever get anything anymore. I want my restricted SO bad.. I work for everything I get. I don't take things for granted anymore. People don't have such a big influence over things I do anymore, either. I've made bad choices in the past, but that's changing. Thank god for being happy <3

Things change, people change; embrace it- there's a reason. We're gonna look back on our high school years once we've graduated and you're gonna remember how much has changed and you'll see how you've changed too. Out of some of this change, the best things will happen. - and I'm starting to see that.

Let's get lost together

Five people who mean a lot. (no particular orderrr)
1- Jordan Erickson
2- Anna Thompson
3- Matt Dylewski
4- Shelley Groves!
5- Whitley Kelly

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Girls are so catty. I don't get why everything is such a HUGE deal. Somethings I can understand someone making a big deal out of. But when it's not that big of a deal- why make it into one? I mean if you want everyone to know alllla' your business and think they know you... Cool. Keep somethings to yourself.


On another note.. it feels good to be happy again. No lie. I love this feeling- a lot. <3
You know when you've been through a whole lot and it's a lot of stress and pain and then you start to get to that happy place again and things start turning around? Yeah- that's where I am. I love constantly smiling and asjdasjdlad! I don't know how to explain it. But it sure is great.

Sleep now. Work tomorrow... again.

i lucille ball, bitch i love lucy !

Eight ways to/things that piss me off?
1. lie to my face
2. talk crap about my family
3. act like you're better than someone else
4. act stupid on purpose
5. when you can't back your shit up
6. drink my drink without asking
7. mess with people i care about
8. people who mess with other people's hearts

AND.


Seven things that cross my mind a lot.
1. gotta check my phone
2. Matt :)
3. musicccc
4. I'm thirsty/hungry!
5. you're about to piss me off
6. I'm cold
7. I want it to be summertime


... &!


Six things you wish you'd never done..
1. started slacking off in school
2. started making stupid choices
3. quit taking things as seriously
4. lied to my parents over and over and over..
5. took as long as I did to learn somethings
6. acted the way I have with my family

i-i-i'm ready for it

Nine things about me.
1- I wish I could move from South Carolina, but I know I'd miss it here.
2- I can't stand cold weather, but I love hoodies and Uggs.
3- my first block class constantly pisses me off.
4- I'd rather have this class for the rest of this year, then have my next semester classes.
5- I wish I was shorter.
6- I eat like there's no tomorrow.
7- I hate when people assume I'm stupid; I have a 4.0 gpa.
8- I have a little sister.
9- I'm very blunt.


This year has been so different from last year. In middle school, they told us everything would change when we got to high school. Last year I saw that a little bit, but it's really hit hard this year. My whole group of friends has grown apart pretty much. A few of us are still close, but I've made new friends. And I've changed too.
The things you do will make or break your reputation.

Sometimes you've gotta do what makes you happpy. I plan on having fun over break and doing what I want. Thank god for no school the rest of the week =]

you wanna see some ass? i wanna see some cash.

I figured, why not? I got this from Clay, by the way.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four things that girls do that you hate.
Day Eight: Three things that girls do that you love.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession


DAY1.
1: Seriously, I miss you so much. I never see you anymore. I'm always working or you have plans already. I miss our conversations and how we always used to be there for each other & stay up talking ALLLL night. You're forever my best friend, no matter what happens. <3
2: God you've changed. I don't know you anymore at all. I never would have imagined this was possible.
3: I never would have thought we'd be good friends. I was kinda worried about having a class with you, actually. But I'm glad we have our dance talks like we do. You're sucha' sweetheart and when you get mad- the things you saaaay! (I don't know how to make that little face we do in dance on here :p)
4: We've gotten so incredibly close this year. You're one of my absolute best friends. You're hilarious and you know how to brighten the mood. Thank god for spanish 3 together next semester. And breaking into Oprah's house.. ;) thanks for everything. I love youuuu! <333
5: I'm sorry.
6: I like how I can talk to you about my problems now and how much better we get along now. Even though you're an ass sometimes and we deff haven't always been on the best of terms- you're a good listener. I'm always here for you.
7: You're such a creeper. asfjalkjdaskd. It doesn't take 52 texts to get the hint...
8: We've grown apart so much. We have such completely different views now it seems. We were super close at the end of freshman year and what's happened? We're wrapped up in our own things and it just sucks. I miss your advice.
9: I don't know about you. Something seems fishy.
10: bb <3 'nuff said. 

i just wanna' be successful.

and this is why i hate this class. i miss one day and the teacher expects me to have the work we did yesterday when it wasn't online. she won't shut the fuck up. and it's pissing me offffff. i hate teachers like this. and now i have to come tuesday after school? oh no.. i don't think sooo.

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP, FINALLY :D
- and i can't wait for tonight. 3:15 can't come fast enough!

i put her on the train- lil engine could ; BITCH

Karma has a way of finding its way around. That's all I gotta say.

the lingering question, kept me up

I hate feeling like I have to hide my emotions as much as I do. It gets to be SO stressful.. And there's just certain things that I could do without having to know about. I hate how immature people can be about somethings. I hate how some people can do something, and not think twice about it- like it doesn't bother them at all. Some people just piss me off. If you know when to stop, then there's not a problem. But if you have to keep going and going for whatever reason- then wow. Are we really still in third grade? Grow up. I hate how I feel like crying sometimes at the littlest things.
I hate how some people just don't get the hint. Obviously, if there wasn't a reply the first 49 times- there's probably not gonna be one when you send text # 50.
I hate how stressful this year has gotten. I hate how bad the drama has gotten. I thought the older you get, the more it calms down and gets easier. We're supposed to get more mature with time.. so why does everyone keep acting like middle schoolers still. I know I can be immature at times, but other people... sheesh.




I can't wait to get away for my birthday.. <3
- 35 more days!



I'm so glad I got my phone back at least and I'm getting back in shape!

fuck yeahhh

WEEZY'S FREE <3